Why I Stopped Filming Myself Doing Full Yoga Flows (And Why Your Practice Needs Less Performance)

The Moment I Realised My Practice Wasn’t Mine Anymore

I’m going to say something that might surprise you: I’m no longer filming full yoga flows for Instagram. Even after taking a break, the moment I rolled out my mat and set up the camera, I felt it, the old urge to perform. To make it look effortless. To push a little deeper, hold a little longer, just in case someone was watching.

Here’s the truth: Yoga is an internal art, not an external display. And somewhere along the way, I forgot that.

How the Camera Turned Yoga Into a Performance

Let’s be honest, most of us know what it’s like to feel watched, even when we’re alone. The camera lens becomes a silent judge. I’d catch myself glancing at the screen instead of closing my eyes in savasana, or pushing into a pose just for the shot.

It’s subtle, but it’s real: the self-editing, the comparison spiral, the “never good enough” soundtrack that plays in the background of motherhood and modern life.
The moment I hit record, my practice stopped being mine. It became a performance.

What Happens When You Practice Without an Audience

So what happens when you take the camera away?

You find something far more valuable than a perfect pose: your Inner Authority.
This is the part of you that knows when to rest, when to modify, when to breathe deeper or back off. It’s the quiet wisdom that says, “This is enough.”

Practising without an audience is like dancing in your living room with the curtains closed -no one to impress, nothing to prove. Just you, your breath, and your body’s truth.

Three Simple Ways to Reclaim Your Mat (No Camera Required)

If you’re ready to reclaim your practice, here are three simple steps to find your sacred space (no camera required):

1. Turn your phone off, or face it down.
   Give yourself permission to be unavailable - even for five minutes.
2. Choose one cue as your anchor.
   Maybe it’s the sound of your breath, the feeling of your feet on the mat, or the rise and fall of your chest. Let that be your guide, not the mirror or the lens.
3. Set an intention before you start.
   Ask yourself: “What do I need right now?” Not, “What will this look like?” but, “What will this feel like?”

Try it. Even once. Notice what shifts.

From Comparison to Compassion: The Shift I Didn’t Know I Needed

This is the shift - from comparison to compassion, from performance to presence.

If you’re craving a practice that’s truly yours, not just another thing to get right, I invite you to join me on YouTube. That’s where I’m sharing the real, unfiltered teachings and practices that help me come home to myself - no performance required.

Ready to experience yoga as it was meant to be? Join me on YouTube for the next step in your journey.

When was the last time you practised just for you? What would it feel like to leave the camera (and the mirror) out of it?